2004-01-13 - 12:22 a.m.
Hey, wanna read a rant?
Did you know that my parents and close family friends give me the cute little nick name "slacker"? No? Neither did I until this weekend. I could go into detail, but really, I think we all understand that their past support of me was just a mask they used to cover their discontentment in my recent life choices. Apparently, I am wasting my potential by leaving school to pursue something I love. I am being selfish and irresponsible not to put my life on hold in order to get married (you know, like my mother did). If I do not get married now, Jordan will find someone worthwhile and leave me because I did not give him what he wanted...I mean what was I thinking making a man wait for me? Now that I no longer purge everything I eat, 123 lbs is too fat and I should be more careful as to what I put into my body. I am wasting my potential and will soon not be able to be a role model for the children I have not had yet. Besides, what is with this whole adoption idea? Why can't I just bear children like normal women? Don't I know that my kids will get teased because everyone will know they are adopted and therefore, wierd? Well it is not like I have to worry about that because my fiancee is going to leave me and by default I will not longer be able to function. You know, because women are not valueable without men or children. But, the plus side is, I still get to be supported finacially as long as my parents are able to monitor and approve of my actions. I think this was the best weekend of my entire life. Wow, that was fun. I hope the wedding is as great as the engagement party was.
Hope,
Tess
"You give me everything. Give me hope within. You are the song I sing." ~Delerious?
